This is a collection of my writing and correspondence with a few bits of poetry and random thoughts mixed in. I started this blog after learning that some of my letters had an uplifting quality. In the pages of this blog you will find my real life trials and tribulations, the nature of what I think is truth, and the dust and grit of my real life.
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Friday, December 26, 2014
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Book Review: Cosmos by Giles Sparrow 2006
Cosmos
ISBN-13: 978-1905204298
I saw this book at a used book store some years ago and
got the biggest book boner I have ever had for one of the tallest if not
largest books in my collection. Cosmos by Giles Sparrow is a beautiful coffee
table book with wonderful images and information.
I noted that at the end of every page the sentence
ended so there was no carry over. This wasn’t hard as the pages are so large
and filled with images. On the down side the images on these pages are
sensitive. You can smudge them with the moisture from your hand leaving dark
spots that may or may not go away. You may want to handle this book with
gloves.
Another down side is that this book was published
before Pluto officially became a dwarf planet. However, the text mentions that
Pluto should be a dwarf planet and names other planets of the type.
I’m not the only one who liked this book. On my last
check Amazon had the book rated with five stars over thirty five reviews. Used
copies can be had for as little as four dollars plus shipping.
Who should read this book?
Those who love to look up at the stars.
Young aspiring astronomers.
Sci fi geeks who would like to know more about the
stars.
Pages Read 220
Total Books read 2
Total Pages Read 555
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Monday, December 22, 2014
Boring Man
10th April 2013
Dear Cassi,
The morning yielded training in professionalism that puts something of a damper of my
letters. I always knew that talking about work was a bad thing but now I’ll have to stop doing that all together or at least never mention clients even if I keep them anonymous.
With so little going on in my life that may strain things, but I still have a long history to relay. I haven’t talked about the past much but have intention to relay to you my life if for no other reason than for the betterment of my own memory.
Work is so much a large part of my life and I have been so careful about never saying the wrong thing about my clients. Still it would appear as though I need to tighten up my standards. I would never call myself a boring man as I always have something to do but interest comes with adventures, and I have few of those outside of work.
I guess what I’m saying I’m going to have to work not to bore you.
Keep your life moving, little sister,
Richard Leland Neal
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Friday, December 19, 2014
Ask a Fat Man
9th
April 2013
Dear Cassi,
What is it with folks who
like to make friends at the gym? On the last two occasions I have taken my exercise
there a man came and talked to me for at least a half hour and asked me about
health of all things. What motivates these questions is beyond me as I am no
man to tell folks how to live.
When looking to better
one’s health it would be wise to ask someone healthier than one’s self. Asking
a bloated monster like me for health advice is like asking a drug addict how to
quit. Then perhaps these folks just need someone to help them pass the time.
The fellow in question on this
occasion never gave me his name but first asked me if running in the water was
better than running on a treadmill. As we were both running in the pool I would
think he knew my view, but I gave him my thoughts to be polite.
I run in the pool because it
takes stress off my joints and so permits me to run longer. If I took the same
time on a treadmill my back would hurt and my knees would sting. The cool of
the water keeps my body from perspiring and so dehydrating. In the pool I can
burn more calories than on a treadmill because I can work out so much longer
without exhaustion.
Once I had told the man of
this he then asked me what I did for a living. We spend some twenty minutes
talking about the nature of the homeless and what I do at work. He told me that
he came from China and that he was the only member of his family here in
America. We spent some time on his religion, and I think he was hoping for a
convert. To my surprise he was a Christian. This fellow did not at any length
detail his religion. He only said that he prayed and that it helped.
Our talk made the minutes
tick by without notice and so made my workout more pleasant. It comes to me
that whatever this man’s motives for reaching into my life he was not an
intrusion.
Enjoy the little things,
Richard Leland Neal
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
False Apologies
8th April 2013
I thought I would never
see the day that your ex-husband would issue an apology, but he did so even if
he lied. The situation is a profound mystery but one of an academic nature.
Does your ex-husband believe me to be so unsound of mind as to believe him over
my memory?
By and large the more the
issue stands that he states his reasoning as to save a long lost friendship.
Odd as it may seem this is a selfish reason. Were a shred of human decency to
pass into this fellows being, and he decided to compensate you for the pain he
caused would it be right of him to expect you to take him back? No, not at all,
as his act would be his payment of debts owed.
Were he to move heaven and
earth to make things right with either of us this would not put things as they were
before his transgression. They may make us as strangers on the street passing
for whatever reason but not being friends.
How do we rebuild a
friendship lost? I do not know. Were he to find a way to be the friend to me
that I was to him, settle his debts, and never again transgress against me this
may do to build again the bridges he has burnt. At the core of this remained
the genuine desire to make things right, and this is something he is without.
As for me, I promised you
that I would talk to this man, and I stand by what I say. In truth, I moved on
long ago and never felt there was any possibility that he would try to make
things right. My suspicions confirmed I may return to my life.
Never dwell in the past,
little sister,
Richard Leland Neal
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Monday, December 15, 2014
Lost File
26th
October 2014
Dear Cassi,
The strangest thing happened. I lost a letter
file. I opened my computer and found it missing but no amount of searching
revealed wherever I put the old file and so I’ve lost about two months worth of
letters I never sent. Ah well, how many times do I need to tell you that I’ve
been struggling with keeping the dishes clean?
For that matter, how much of my life’s records
have been lost to my injuries of this year or simply my depression? This new
development brings me not even one year closer to being caught up. In fact, I
remain no less than nineteen months behind in the mailing of my letters. To put
that into perspective, if I cleared one month worth of letters every week when
I am done with what I have now I’d rack up another four months backlog.
To be clear, I did have my faced blooded some and
have lost three pets then gained two more in the last year. Every battle feels
hard fought and every day feels too short for work and too long in problems.
I keep trying to burn through my long held
reserves only to fine the fuel wet and the matches old. So the piles of long
held nonsense loom like hills on a long walk home. Well, here I have my walking
stick in hand and on my back a heavy pack.
Walk on, little sister,
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
Pony and Pickles
14th January 2013
Dear
Cassi,
This
week I was issued court paperwork stating that Pony-Girl will be applying for
power of attorney over Pickles. Trusting a woman that tried to have me kicked
out of a home that I own twice is absolutely crazy. Then, Pickles is absolutely
crazy and the two were made for each other.
I
can say with a high degree of certainty that this will come bite him in the
tail. This family wrote me off as a loss seven years ago and now I think they
can go about their business so long as it keeps free of me.
This
is a group of people made for one another and the best raven I could ever have
would be to give them to one another.
Sometimes
you got to move on, little sister,
Richard
Leland Neal
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Pony Girl
8th January 2013
Dear
Cassi,
I
took a great pain in avoiding the Pony Girl this morning but to no avail. The
very site of my female blood sibling is revolting to me, but today I writhed in
disgust at her actions which were in breach of the law.
Today
the state inspector came to see what work Pony Girl had been so dissatisfied
with in my washrooms. I will grant she was in good position to complain, but as
I took solace in my email I heard he speak of how the work had not been
finished. As she had ordered the work stopped I cannot mark this as a wise
complaint.
There
is no question that the fitting delivered were not as promised, but it is not
the fault of the contractor that the job is left unfinished. Then Pony Girl and
her husband’s rudeness to the contractor is another point of concern. She
stated this by being combative and hard to work with and she was met with
combat and difficulty.
Further
to this, I told the inspector that I had something to add and he told me to
wait until he had heard her statement. After hearing her he left, and I was never
given the moment to speak.
This
thing is a ponder keg and I have no idea as to the damage that will come of
its explosion. It seems as if I have no path to take to change things and so I
must ride the wave when it comes.
Worry
over what you can change, Cassi,
Richard Leland Neal
Monday, December 8, 2014
Bad Air filter
5th January 2013
Dear
Cassi,
As
I said in my last letter I was forced to go to a mechanic I do not trust. I
believe I left off at my having stopped in at an eatery spend time and then
return to the mechanic. On arriving he suggested that I have my air filter
changed. I told him that I had a K&N and that my air filter would live for
the life of my car.
This
bothered the man who felt that no air filter should last that long as then he
could not charge for its replacement. My air filter is five time the cost of a
normal one, but I have all confidence it can do as the manufacture says. I have
felt the difference and talked to others who know it as well.
It turns out I have a cabin air filter and
that needed changing and a nail in my back tire.
I
knew the tires to be on the old and worn side and so agreed to have them
changed. He said that he would take me home as the repair would take two and a
half hours. I told him I would take a walk.
Having
just had breakfast and smelling like a homeless man I took to the streets of
uptown not knowing where I was going. My back protested, but I was determined
to make a use of my time. It came to me that even my stink was my own fault and
that this long walk would help me to remember to act under my best interest.
As
I moved along I stopped in front of a movie theater but seeing that I had just
passed the show times of any soon airing film I walked on. I quickly came to a
park which was nicely furnished and kept, but the public lavatory was devoid of
tissue and in a stated I still hesitated to use.
At
the pet shot I found a usable rest room and spent a time in it more drying the
perspiration from my clothes than any other act. I do not understand how I
became so filthy and ill smelling, but I know I was avoided because of my
stench. I would not even rest my back end in my car when the work was done but
used my jacket to cover the seat.
Keep
clean, little sister,
Richard
Leland Neal
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Friday, December 5, 2014
Fish in the Rear-view
4th January 2012
Dear
Cassi,
There
come times in my life that I know myself to be a masochist. Today was a day of
that nature as I chose to chastise myself for my failings in the nature of a
long walk. It began as the simple need to take my car to have the oil changed.
It
was on my way there that the computer told me that the oil had breathed its
last, and needed change. For the duration of the car ride the miles counted
ticking away as if a bomb would go off under my hood.
I
arrived at my mechanic to find the building abandoned and had no option but to
return to the shop that had worked on my old car and caused my buying a new
one. The building there had long been left still but this because they had
flourished rather than wilted and now needed a bigger facility.
When
I arrived at this new shop with its white walls and red door, so much
like a hospital to me, I learned that
I would have to wait passed normal business open for a supervisor. Still in
uniform and with the breath of the night on me with its stale body odors I
found an eatery to settle a hunger I did not have.
The
was a feel to this place I well understood as I watched the aquariums that kept
lonely patroness company on cold mornings like this. I ate paid and left but
knew the day was long from over.
Stay
strong, little sister,
Richard Leland Neal
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
The Pit
2nd January 2013
Dear
Cassi,
Pony
Girl came again today as some interloper into my home. She, Pickles, and the
fellow from across the street, Ken, were cleaning as I sat in my room with the
kittens. I immerged to find that Ken had cleaned the mess of wood chips he had
left in the back yard and that the kitchen floor had been mopped.
It
comes to me that Pickles is a slob until Pony Girl arrives and my two siblings
become more of a use together. Why all the interest in the state of my home now
troubles me. I feel as if I’m watching them dig a pit to drop me into to fight
some new beast they’ve found.
Pony
Girl has always been one to do what she wishes, call it help, then demand twice
the worth of her “service” as gratitude. Her version of ‘Help’ has always been
so costly. Much as when Alan ‘gave’ me that old white car and then Pony Girl
demanded my slavery for my accepting the thing. I had argued with them saying
that I didn’t want the car, took it to shut them up, was heckled until I
returned it to them, and they were angry with me.
This
event prompted the old man to give his little girl thirty thousand dollars to
move away from me. She got another thirty thousand after that from what I
understand. The spooled never grow into people I guess. They just make their
way in life as parasites.
What
an ugly world we live in that kindness can be a word be use to mask abuse.
Then, when we look at the grand nature of things my little life is just an ugly
place in an even worse world.
Whatever
comes I will meet it was best I can. Whatever happens next I’ll take it like an
adult. The fight will be hard, but what part of my life hasn’t been?
Stay
safe, little sister,
Richard
Leland Neal
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
National Geographic Vol. 1 Review
National
geographic vol. 1
Favorite quote issue: 1 page: 60 paragraph 1 The
survey of the coast By Herbert G. Orden.
“To know these things only approximately will not
suffice, for precision is practiced now in the art of war, as well as in the
arts of peace.”
In reading this early text by The National
Geographic Society I was first struck by the few images and dry nature of the
words which made the reading hard. The vocabulary was different form modern day
and more poetic and refined but still readable. The volume is much easier to
get through if one clicks the “Read this Book Aloud” function in the upper
right hand corner.
The articles describing surveying of land and
waterways are of little interest given that they describe the quality of maps
drawn but informative in how the explain the usefulness of an understanding of geography
and navigation. Explained is the idea that safe navigation will make trade much
more profitable and defense much more practical.
The jewel in the this collection of works was the article
on the present and future of Africa which yields an understanding of slavery as
it was practiced in 1888 and the barbarism there seen. If further describes the
slaver practiced outside the United States of America, and this topic being
missing from my education fascinated me.
I can recommend skimming this work rather than
reading and picking out what is best and interesting.
Books read 1
Total Pages Read 335
Read it yourself at: https://archive.org/stream/nationalgeograph11889nati#page/n0/mode/2up
Monday, December 1, 2014
Going Over Old Mail
30th August 2014
Dear
Cassi,
The
day has been hot and my soul weary from the heat and exertion. As I am so large
a man I carry a heave load in myself, and as I have built up so much fat I have
so built up a reserve on junk and nonsense.
I’ve
spent some of my day pouring over old files and in so editing the letters I
intended to male back in January of 2013. This was a file of broken thoughts as
some of these letters were far from finished and others were just notes.
To
add to this obstacle there is a small maze of old files covering these letters.
Back then I had a file marked letters and a another marked ‘letters two’ but
now I have a new file for every month to keep things strait. Went I finely mail
the things I file them by date.
Why
not just file by date to start with? Well, then I wouldn’t remember what I’ve
mailed.
Keep
your head in the game, little sister,
Richard
Leland Neal
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