6th
January 2015
Dear Cassi,
Being a man as large as I am it should be no
surprise to you that I was encouraged to play football in high school. Never
having a love for sports I agreed but it was a terrible fit. For one I was one
of three white men on a team full of the kind of folks who boo the American
flag and talk about how much they hate this country.
The players hated me for being who I was and the
coach hated me because I wasn’t dedicated. Well, he felt that all players
needed to have sixth period Physical Education and as I couldn’t take that
class he never let me play. He couldn’t keep me off the team, though he should
have, but he didn’t have to let me participate.
Now I was so large a man that when I did get to
practice, when too few players arrived for us to scrimmage, I could stop the
varsity team from moving the ball. As a freshman I was proud of myself for this
fact, but it gave me no playing time.
Then I would have made a poor player. I was large
and bulky but slow, slow because of the depression that marred me, and slow
because I was so big. If I had played I never would have been able to maintain
for the game.
Then again, most of the players only preformed
their drills when the coach wasn’t watching, and no one wanted to win so much
as they wanted to play. I gained an experience from football but it was only
the merest of anecdotes in my life.
Play for the right reasons, little sister,
Richard Leland Neal