This is a collection of my writing and correspondence with a few bits of poetry and random thoughts mixed in. I started this blog after learning that some of my letters had an uplifting quality. In the pages of this blog you will find my real life trials and tribulations, the nature of what I think is truth, and the dust and grit of my real life.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Friday, June 7, 2013
In Four Years
10th July 2011
Dear (Potential Employer),
I’ve been a Security Officer for the
last ten years, but with four years of Grad School ahead of me I’m looking to
stay one until I get my MS. I like my work as a guard, and I’m told I do it
well.
At the start of this year I was laid off
from my seven year employer and took that time to finish my degree. They lost
more than 50 jobs that month, so I guess it was inevitable.
My last employer said that if business
picked up they would call me back, but they knew I was soon to become a college
graduate. I doubt they will have need for more Guards any time soon. They had
lost ten jobs the month before and fifteen two months earlier.
In four years I hope to get my
certification from the state as a Mental Health Counselor. I want to help
people. I can get this degree without working another day if I wanted to cash
in my retirement plan and come away with tens of thousands in debt. I don’t see
this as an option. A man is better off working than borrowing.
I look for honest work for honest pay.
Thank you for your time,
Richard Leland Neal
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Circular Logic
28th April 2013
There has been a bit of business stuck in my gut for a few years that I’ve meant to talk to you about. Truth is this has likely slipped from your memory.
It must have been some eight years ago shortly before Celaya shipped off to the army that we went to a strip club. I’m not sure how common an event this is for you, but it has never left my mind, because I was in a lot of pain. It happened that I was suffering from potassium deficiency, and so my gut filled with water and threatened to burst.
Well, Celaya just insisted I get a lap dance and only stopped asking when I screamed to be left alone. From what I gather you asked Mr. Celaya why he refused to listen and he told you that I was always saying ‘no’ to him. This came up a few years later when Chris Celaya pestered me to play video games when I had homework.
I recall lamenting to you that Chris would not listen to me unless I was screaming. “He pesters me until I snap” I think were my words, and you replied with “Well, you’re always saying ‘no’ to him” as if this gave him the right to treat me in this manner.
I just have to ask, James, did it ever cross your mind that this was circular logic? Honestly, I never have to say yes. That’s just not how things work, but when I got up and walked away from the situation I detected a feeling of anger among your friends.
Don’t get me wrong, it was unfair of me to have involved you in this at all. It was my fight and I should have fought it alone until it ended my friendship with Chris Celaya.
This put a bitter feeling in my gut about you for some years and I guess this is my way of letting it go. I’d like to apologize for that as I should have just explained the situation. I still would rather you keep your hands to yourself. I mean, no means no and should have no less meaning or power no matter how many times it passes my lips.
Just had to get that out,
Richard Leland Neal
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
Hope and Sarah
From my 1994 Middle School Yearbook
It was only my second year of middle school when I
started collecting signatures. This was because I had difficulty spelling
and didn't like signing things. Back then I went by Ricky, because I couldn't spell Richard. This changed my first year of high school. I'm preserving the signatures from my yearbooks now.
Who knows, maybe someone will see them and enjoy them.
"To: Ricky
Hope you have
fun in the summer,
and good luck next
year.
Bye
Hrigo P."
Now, this next inscription I have no idea about. I recall a Sarah or two in middle school, it is a common name, but "Jaws"?
This could be a reference to the 1979 James Bond movie Moonraker. There was a vary tall fellow in that film with mettle teeth that they called Jaws. This girl could have had braces and just run with the nickname.
Unless she comes back into my life somehow I guess I will never know.
"To: Ricky
Have a cool
summer, and don't
get too hot!
Your friend
Sarah
or
Jaws"
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Dear Doctor Beals
3rd May 2013
Dear Doctor Beals,
A subject has crossed my desk that would benefit
from your expertise in intimate relationships. It’s more of an argument really
but none the less I feel it is in the greater interest of the persons involved
and their future significant others that I do my best to resolve the dispute.
It would happen that a heterosexual male wished to
add a second female to his sexual activity with his girlfriend and later wife.
The woman in question has a history of sexual trauma. It is my understanding
that her sexual behaviors are strong and strange enough to warrant the question.
Further, what a group of consenting adults does with their bodies is their
business and it is my practice never to judge people on their sexual choices.
However, when the female refused the male became insistent.
He masturbated to pornography featuring to females and insisted on watching
this pornography during intercourse. He further became increasingly upset when
the female continued to refuse. At one time he went so far as to withhold sex
unless his significant other agreed to permit a second female in the
relationship.
After the couple was married he only raised the
subject once and was silenced by strong reproach. There was little sex in the relationship
after marriage and what there was involved watching pornography.
Now, it is my opinion that pressuring your significant
other into a sexual situation in which they are uncomfortable is a breach of trust.
Further, it is my opinion that intercourse should be an act of mutual fulfillment.
Would this man’s actions
be a breach of trust?
Richard Leland Neal
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